After a gap of 3 months.. i thought to pen down something.. and since its year end nothing cud be better to just recall the whole year,
dont know where to start, but frankly speaking this year gave me lot to learn about life people and added to my ability to understand and judge people...which skill i thought i had mastered..
like everyone as the sun set 0n 31 st dec i had reason to hope for best tyms in the year 2009, my transfer was to be finalised , pay hike, marraiges, exams .. and of course with support of gud friends i entered in 2009...... there lie a long list of what i lost, my friend who lost his life on 8 jan on duty, my transfer against my will, some family problems, but over and above all .. i lost a relationship ...ya the one called best friends , the faith were shaken, when i knew ..that my location matterred the most inspite of my committement to help him in the best possible way that i could do, the quality were missed that was actually required... and of all .. i offerred something that was not needed so ... no doubts.... we must depart... how cud such relation be maintained which had two faces... ...with rounds and rounds of talks ... things finally normalised... ya we should bid adieu...BUT .. then also ... how could people have two different settings in mind .. how cud people act in two different ways .. how cud you go for the things which you were and are totally against ... how could you do things that you dont mean.....yaa i was mistaken .. as told....hmmm may be ....but this left me all shattered and ha .. no exams...no preparations... naaa it was not that i was just feeling for something it was because how could ... someone be of such type...., anyways .. still the faith on god continues... he might have planned these to teach me something.....
marraige at home, bro getting into iit, added some smile on my face .. getting some new friends , attending friends marraige was the event that helped to regain my confidence in friendship, but still the doubt remains.. and this tym .. i m bit careful ...i dont have much strength left to survive the next shock ...hope new year brings joy and i achieve as per my plans...no one to be blamed, it was my luck , my fault, my mistake....and hence i accept it in totality, and take all responsibility .better luck .. and tyms in 2010....